'Sarah' x

Two people can be so similar, yet, so different in numerous ways. Tonight is a night which i will want to forget as soon as possible. Arguments happen in all relationships. I am currently sat here writing this understanding fully that i have put the one element to my life that is so important right now in deep jeapody. For some reason, i dont seem to learn from mistakes, and continue to make the same ones repeatedly, resulting in me usually losing something that means so much. That thing at present is my beautiful girlfriend, Sarah, or more commonly known, (munch). If she were a star, she would be the brightest one in the midnight sky, if she were a colour, she would be gold, a colour more bold, confident and pure than the rest. If she were the sea, she would be the clearest and calmest in the universe. If she were the sun, she would shine her light upon everyone she comes across each and every single day. If she were light, she would be the most brightly glowing white light on the earth. If she is still mine in 3 hours time, i will be the luckiest human being that has ever stepped foot on our planet, or any other in the universe. It is obvious to her that i am in love with her so deeply, however, the smaller things that arent initially there to hurt someone, cause the most upset. The problem i seem to have is stopping these smaller things from happening. Why? you ask.....i am not entirely sure, i dont intend to hurt people, and to say your in love with someone is a massive step. But as time passes, i am starting to believe that she deserves love which i just cant offer, protection, trust, faith, loyalty and attention which i dont seem to have the greatest ability to show. As i write this , a small tear is falling down my cheek as im fearing the worst case scenario. Her words this evening were, ; I know it would kill you if we broke up,' and i couldnt have put it any better, or more simply than that. Relationships are amazing, but very difficult to keep strong, i thought we were ultimate, but as tonight shows, this isnt the case. I would honestly die for my beautiful Sarah, as long as she was able to go on living a healthy, and happy life with anyone. I cant see my life without her, she is the final piece to my soul that makes me feel safe and secure. I am also overly proud of her, the way she balances her social life, her personal family life, her uni work and then me. No man could ever wish to meet a sweeter, generous, stunning and sympathetic woman. If anyone argues this fact, i would like to see the day they show me someone better!!!

My love for her is endless, my loyalty is greater than life itself!, ,i just need her to realise that no matter what i say and do, she is the only person i wish to spend the remainder of my life with.

All my love, Max xxx