'Seeing is believing'

Weird isnt it...how things change i mean. It has been exactly 3 months since my last post. The reasons for this are numerous. Uni work has kept me away from such time wasting tasks as this, going out with my friends, making new friends, finding myself, working and loving my life. Yet, now, at 3.30am with such an emotional band as Coldplay rushing through my head, its hard not to reflect back over recent times. So, where did it all begin????? January 17th, a day i shall never forget, a day when a spark of light flew past my eyes...only a flash...but the flash was bright enough to notice and to take a mental picture enabling me to hold such an image in my head. What image you are asking..? Imagine an angel, fallen from heaven, glowing with excitement, expectation, dreams and love. A weird combination i know but still a fantastic one all the same. If you look back to my January post and read the last 4 lines or so you will understand that the person mentioned grew on me over those next few days. The harmless flirting over text became, strangely, much more powerful, almost like a hold had been placed on me by fate and it wasnt going to let go! The main thought at this time was, anticipation...anticipation of that first moment when eyes connect, two people look at one another, their poriferal vision blurs, focus is only between those two soles and it happens.....a kiss, one small kiss, but fires light up inside your stomach, a warm glow runs through your veins. And the next feeling, well is simply a feeling of craving the moment that has just passed. From this point on my life has changed dramatically. Imagine a lollipop..silly as it may sound, just imagine for a second how sweet to taste one is... this was her...my lollipop, nothing had ever tasted so sweet, no one had ever tasted so sweet. A few weeks passed with other meetings and sparks that failed to go away, but instead, get progressively stronger until the sparks became solid light, the brightest white light you can picture, the purest light. We have now become desperately close and cannot stand to be away from each other even after this short amount of time. Its clear this post is dedicated to her, but right now i cant think of anything else but her. To believe something so beautiful could exist in this world is unimaginable, unbelieveable in fact. But, my mum always told me as a child, 'maxwell, you have to see something to believe it......i finally see it, this profound beauty that has entered my life and now, i cannot imagine my life if she disappeared. The morale of this post is seeing is believing, there is someone out there for all of us, but to want it enough you have to look hard enough..............................................'S.E.E' it.................. 'S.arah E.lizabeth E.vans' i love you xxx